I detest the concept of self and personality; for how can one be of his own essence when the self is one that requires searching? Identity, rather than self, that is. Yet how many of us actually have one with the facades we carry? Where reality is concerned, are we really governed by laws that we cannot defy? If so, who and what are we? If human interaction really is merely a game of variable manipulation, how can one’s integrity be upheld without pretension and false impressions? All the more should judgments witheld.
Respect and trust are earned qualities, they say. Truths, indeed, yet I question: Are we in desperate need to have others prove their worth to us and vice versa? While relationships, regardless of the nature it takes, are essentially governed by these qualities, what of unconditional states, e.g. love? These qualities are essentially naturally occuring; it is only human nature to expect justice regardless of the sincerity in which existing relationships are maintained; hence the detestation of true altruism. Disappointing indeed human expectations are. Are we merely what others make of us? If so, are we products of social constitutionalism and dynamism? In turn, our notions of ’self’ and ‘personality’ would all sum a severely mistaken identity.
Are these merely statements of repentance and change, or is this the beginning of an unending, rebellious justification for attaining the pleasures of our ever incomprehensibly deceitful hearts? Suffice to say, however, that carefulness, willingness, and purposefulness of the heart to desire consistency in positive growth is the first step to living.
